Anyone who knows me, knows that I love to write. I adore journaling to get to the heart of who I am and what is going on. Journaling always kickstarts my desire to write a book. And when I am writing a book, I will often blog the content. Heaven on earth would be the perfect writing space and plenty of time to create everything I wanted to.
I believe that writing heals. That it can change lives, especially ours.
Whenever I have wanted to sort something out, the first place I go is within and write whatever wanted to be revealed. Usually, random journaling leads to aha’s, but rarely a book. When I journal with purpose a book often comes to me.
101 days came about approximately four years ago. I had recently left an unpleasant relationship. One evening I had opened his computer and discovered the truth of who he was and what he had been doing for our entire relationship. One morning six weeks later, after yet another horrible dream, I knew that it was time to leave. I packed up the
When I arrived, I knew that I needed to focus on my first 100 days, and I added 1 on for good measure. The first 100 days of a leader’s life (to quote my Executive Coaching days) are critical. It seemed to me, that these were also critical days, and if I was going to live and work here successfully, I’d better focus on what I wanted and moving forward.
Journaling had saved my life before, so I figured it would save it again. But this time I wanted more from it.
To be honest it was difficult. At the same time of writing I did a daily video. Watching the rawness of the betrayal unravel was at times ugly, but also cathartic.
It helped me to keep to going forward.
Later I wrote a book – Rude Awakenings – A journey to self-love. I didn’t want to publish, although I have the proof copy. I’m forever grateful for my 101 days journal and the healing writing experience. I was looking at the book recently and knew that there would be a time to publish, I’m just not sure when. Not what you expect to hear from a coach, but I believe that its initial purpose has been served and until I am ready to use it wisely it must stay as a proof book.
When you look back at your 101 days is there a book in there? In this case I wrote the book after the 101 days. It was in the reflection that I found I needed to change my perception of the story.
While I was writing the book, I developed a process for creating more self-love in my life. I turned that content into a course (Journey to self-love) which I took as I developed it. I find creating courses in this practical way also irons out any wrinkles – well as much as you can.
Inspiration also came in the form of another book called The puppy with no name. It’s my story told through the eyes of a puppy I found one Sunday evening while out walking. Angel (the dog) was a messenger, or at least it felt that way. She was very naughty and I could just imagine her antics as I wrote. This too was a cathartic book but in a different way. With this
This kind of book is what I call creative life writing and it is so much fun. Start with a short story.
What was also deeply cathartic was destroying videos and journal. I watched that part of my life go up in cleansing flames. I do love a good journal burning ceremony, don’t you?
Fast forward to January 2018, and in the first few days of this new year I gained 4 new book clients, and I was, as you can imagine delighted. By the end of January, my spine had fractured. I was unable to breathe and walk properly, and I was in intense pain. After a week of staring at the ceiling, I dragged myself out of bed to find a journal I had been saving for a special occasion. This was indeed a special occasion; my life depended on my recovery.
I was lucky friends helped me and the dogs went into the kennels which made life easier, but very lonely. I made myself get up to cook and get cups of tea, but it was hard. After 11 days I couldn’t bear not having my dogs with me, and they returned from the kennels and joined me on the bed as I wrote.
I learned from an unsympathetic and unlistening specialist that I had osteoporosis. She gave me a prescription and told me to go to the gym. I cried in her surgery and I cried in the street. However, I discovered a deep wisdom that said I could heal this naturally.
To be fair I am pretty bloody minded and focused.
Over 2018, I devoured books, blogs and research papers looking for answers. I wanted to know the root cause and treat that. It wasn’t easy, and I did have some other complications. But I knew these were temporary and that if I carried on writing, I would get through this.
As I healed, I wrote a book – Healing Osteoporosis Naturally. It’s currently in edit and will be released soon. It’s a book of my story and the methodology I used to find my root cause. It covers journaling (of course), nutrition and shares lots of information about osteoporosis and most importantly where to get good quality support. It provides a process for the newly diagnosed to follow.
What is curious is the approach I took to this book. Rather than know all of the answers because I had completed the journey, as I learned something new, I pieced the answers together. I share my story in real time and then as I gleaned something from research I was able to add that in.
This way of writing is ‘interesting’, but what it does is maintains your focus on your healing and takes your mind off (in my case) the pain. Instead I got brain ache…
When I could, I started working again, going through old plans and content and bringing things up to date when I had the energy. It felt incredible to be a part of life and having a ‘purpose’ again, but I soon realised I could not maintain the long days of old.
I found simplicity, decluttered and I trusted that all would be well. I also knew that like 2014, which at the time was life changing, 2018 had been the biggest period of personal growth I have ever experienced. While it hurt and I am still in some pain, I am celebrating finding me.
I needed a break from the osteoporosis ‘stuff’ and decided to put the book now at 60,000 words (I have written much more and edited hard) on hold to focus on my business. To kickstart the ‘getting back on track’ I decided once again to write a book and a course. This time I created and took the course first while repurposing that content into a book, for later. That course is called Create a business you love. This helped me to cement what I know, realise what skills I had, reinforce that I was doing what I love and am good at, set goals and set vision. Out of that I then went into planning mode.
A voice said you need to do 101 days again. You need to go on a deep inner journey; you may have found you, but what about letting a bit more of the grunge go while focusing on what you want? What about your business, your goals, desires, intentions? What about your further healing? What about so many things?
In an instant, the contract was signed and a new journal placed by the side of my bed. 101 days of being me has once again emerged.
I know the next book I am writing and yes it is also a course. While I am an active part of 101 days, the content is already being shaped into a book, journal and course.
Then, while I was putting together this journaling adventure 101 days of being me, the idea of another Writing to Heal book emerged. I shall be writing that on the BIG Book Project alongside the other writers.
When you find yourself at the edge of the void, you can look down and let go free falling into who knows where. Or you can look within to your divine inner wisdom where the answers to what you desire lie.
Writing in a journal with an intention to heal,
What you have to do is trust, write, reflect and enjoy the process.